I’m sitting in bed at 7:52pm, without a single worry right now. It is June 19th, meaning my last day of junior year. These past 10 months were my most stressful and lonely year of my school life. This summer will be a much needed break for my mental health.
So this is where I’m at right now.
I had grades lower than I ever thought I could, and I had a couple of breakdowns. It felt like I was slowly sinking lower and lower into a never ending pit. I was sad a lot of the time. I didn’t want to go out with my friends, so I just sat at home. I didn’t feel like doing anything.
I am finally getting over that. It is a slow process, but I am happier again. Currently, there is a beautiful rainbow outside my window, and I am listening to my favorite songs. This is what a perfect night looks like to me.
I have been drinking more water (75 ounces a day!) and my skin has cleared up a lot. I am also feeling better about my body and building towards my goal by working out daily.
I haven’t been reading as much as I want to be for the past two months. I guess I am in a bit of a slump. But I’ve been doing so much writing. My writing style has changed, and so has my perspective. I have improved drastically compared to my writing from just a couple of months ago.
I have also learned to be more patient, more humble, and more loving. I try to keep my mouth shut rather than arguing in some situations. Some people are just not worth the energy.
I guess that while this school year was tough, I know that I survived, and I only have another 180 days to go. I can do this.